Obedience

I am without question not the smartest kid on the block (that award goes to my 5 year old), but I am trying very hard to understand obedience. The past couple months have been very difficult on me as I have wrestled with my desires and needs verses God's plan for me. I have been trying to understand what it is I am supposed to do. I am trying to understand why I am being moved so far outside my comfort zone. I have read scripture about obedience. I have entered into prayer. I have talked to people I love and respect about this topic. Through it all, I hear all the right things about obedience, but do I really understand what it means to do what God is asking? I hope I hear Him clearly, and I pray I am doing what He asks of me.

Trying to discern all of this can be exciting. The implementation can be awful. What I do know is God placed on our hearts to be married in His presence. I believe He has asked me to go on a mission trip to Nicaragua with some amazing high school students (I do not like to leave my basement). What I also know is that He has blessed Beth Ann and I with the responsibility of a third child of His. For Him to entrust us to raise three children to follow Him, to love Jesus, and to further His kingdom is amazing to me. The least I can do is be obedient.

Mark